It is in Mahayana, the dominant Buddhist tradition of East Asia, that the Medicine Buddha first appears. The Medicine Buddha embodies the healing aspect. He is the dispenser of spiritual medicine that cures spiritual, psychological, and physical disease.Through the energy of this deity, one can generate enormous healing power for self and for the healing of others. Incidentally, as Mahayana Buddhism spread throughout the Far East, it involved the practice of Ayurveda, the sacred medical system of India meaning the “science of long life,” and the worship of the Medicine Buddha.

Astrologically, the day of the Medicine Buddha is the eighth day of the lunar month. At that time, the healing energy of this deity is said to be especially strong. This is when rituals for healing and for making medicines are performed.

 

Autism is a neurobiological disorder. Incidentally, children that show the signs of autism do not like changes and tend to follow certain routines or patterns. They also usually suffer from a learning disability. Subsequently, parents, some grandfather’s, extended family, and pediatricians usually do not take these symptoms seriously as they think that their children would improve soon. But, specific methods should be implemented by parents from the child’s early age to help him overcome his inabilities. Again, there are no medical tests that can show that a child is suffering from this disorder. So, it is important that parents keenly observe their toddlers behavior and development, as this is a main source in which autism can be diagnosed. Autism is a disorder that affects development of the brain, due to which a child shows lack of interest in socialization and communication. Children with autism or one of the other disorders on the autism spectrum can differ considerably with respect to their abilities, intelligence, and behavior.

 

 

Early detection of autism is up to parents.

 

 

1. Monitor your child’s development.
2. Take action if you’re concerned.
3. Don’t accept a wait-and-see approach. Many concerned parents are told, “Don’t worry” or “Wait and see.” But waiting is the worst thing you can do. You risk losing valuable time at an age where your child has the best chance for improvement. Furthermore, whether the delay is caused by autism or some other factor, developmentally delayed kids are unlikely to simply “grow out” of their problems. In order to develop skills in an area of delay, your child needs extra help and targeted treatment.
4. Trust your instincts.

 

 

If autism is caught in infancy, treatment can take full advantage of the young brain’s remarkable plasticity. Although autism is hard to diagnose before 24 months, symptoms often surface between 12 and 18 months. If signs are detected by 18 months of age, intensive treatment may help to rewire the brain and reverse the symptoms.

 

 

Early signs of autism in babies and toddlers

 

• Doesn’t smile when smiled at.

• Doesn’t respond to his or her name or to the sound of a familiar voice. (now imagine being called by a different name at this stage of development. It’s not a healthy choice to not call a child by their given name, if signs of autism are showing!)

• Doesn’t follow objects visually.

• Doesn’t point or wave goodbye or use other gestures to communicate.

• Doesn’t follow the gesture when you point things out.

• Doesn’t make eye contact (e.g. look at you when being fed).

• Doesn’t initiate or respond to cuddling.

• Doesn’t imitate your movements and facial expressions.

• Doesn’t reach out to be picked up.

• Doesn’t play with other people or share interest and enjoyment.

• Doesn’t ask for help or make other basic requests.

• Doesn’t make noises to get your attention.

 

The following delays warrant an immediate evaluation by your child’s pediatrician.

 

• By 6 months: No big smiles or other warm, joyful expressions.

• By 9 months: No back-and-forth sharing of sounds, smiles, or other facial expressions.

• By 12 months: Lack of response to name!!!!!!!!!!!! again, call them by their GIVEN name!

• By 12 months: No babbling or “baby talk.”

• By 12 months: No back-and-forth gestures, such as pointing, showing, reaching, or waving.

• By 16 months: No spoken words.

• By 24 months: No meaningful two-word phrases that don’t involve imitating or repeating.

 

 

 

First Signs of Autism

 

 

1. No Eye Contact

2. Failure in Responding to Their Name

3. Absence of Language

4. Resistance to Touch and Lack of Interaction

5. Repetitive Behavior

 

 

Again, I would like to STRESS: Children start responding to their name when they are 6-8 months old. However, autistic children do not respond at all when they are called by their names. Many times, it happens that children are engaged in some other activity and they do not respond when someone calls them. But, if this occurs frequently, it should definitely be a cause of concern for parents. And, call the child by their given name. Don’t let intrusive family members tell you otherwise!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Methods for Teaching Autistic Children

 

 

It is a general observation that autistic children do not understand verbal language. Instead, non-verbal or picture language is easy for them to understand. Hence, parents or teachers should demonstrate pictures of all concrete things to autistic children. Photographs can also be used for this purpose. They should also demonstrate various actions so that it is easier for children to understand. For e.g., to make a child understand what is an apple,  show the picture of the fruit. Similarly, to make a child understand the difference between stand up or sit down,  demonstrate those actions. This way, the child will learn faster. I home-schooled for 10 years and this method was very effective.

 

Autistic children take all words in their literal meaning. Hence, do not speak in sarcastic or taunting manner. Also, avoid asking vague questions to autistic children. Instead they should be very specific and direct. For e.g., do not ask an autistic child as to why has he done a certain thing. they will not be able to answer. Instead,  tell the child not to do a particular thing. This way,s/ he will be able to differentiate between right and wrong.

 

 

Parents should keep in mind, not to force anything on their children. Children can be helped to overcome autism with the joint effort of parents, family and teachers. There are many autistic adults leading a normal life. The only thing that parents and teachers should remember is, ‘Patience is the key to success’.

 

 

What are the Specific Disorders on the Autism Spectrum?

 

 

There are five disorders classified under the umbrella category officially known as Pervasive Developmental Disorders, or PDD. As shown below, these are:

 

• autism;

• Asperger syndrome;

• Rett syndrome;

• childhood disintegrative disorder; and

• Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (often referred to as PDDNOS).

 

 

The five conditions are defined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, Fourth Edition, Text Revision (DSM-IV-TR) of the American Psychiatric Society (2000).

 

 

In early 2010, the American Psychiatric Association released draft revisions to its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5) and invited comments from both professionals and the general public. The final and official fifth revision of the DSM is expected to be published in May 2013.

 

 

When published, the DSM-5 is expected to affect how autism and associated disorders are diagnosed. Among the proposed revisions are:

 

• changing the name of the diagnostic category to Autism Spectrum Disorders;

• including Asperger Syndrome, Childhood is integrative Disorder, and PDDNOS under the diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorders, rather than defining them separately and a bit differently, as is now the case;

• removing Rett Syndrome from the DSM entirely (and, thus, from the autism spectrum).

I would like to note here that having depression and or being on the spectrum does not warrant a “label” of having a “mental-disorder” or illness. This wording is a problem and needs to be changed.

 

Signs and symptoms of speech and language difficulties in autism

 

 

Children with autism spectrum disorders have difficulty with speech and language. Often, they start talking late. (Jocque started to really speak at around 5 years old. His speech consisted of the following:)

 

• Speaks in an abnormal tone of voice, or with an odd rhythm or pitch (e.g. ends every sentence as if asking a question).

• Repeats the same words or phrases over and over.

• Responds to a question by repeating it, rather than answering it.

• Refers to themselves in the third person.

• Uses language incorrectly (grammatical errors, wrong words).

• Has difficulty communicating needs or desires.

• Doesn’t understand simple directions, statements, or questions.

• Takes what is said too literally (misses undertones of humor, irony, and sarcasm).

 

 

Prenatal factors that may contribute to autism

 

 

• Taking antidepressants during pregnancy, especially in the first 3 months (Incidentally, I have NEVER taken any medication for my depression!!!!!!!!!!!!)

• Nutritional deficiencies early in pregnancy, particularly not getting enough folic acid (I was an intensive health-nut at that point in my life. I was 29 when I became pregnant with him.)

• The age of the mother (children born to older fathers also have a higher risk of autism)

• Complications at or shortly after birth, including very low birth weight and neonatal anemia(There were major complications with his birth, that is explained later in this post.)

• Maternal infections during pregnancy (I had none.)

• Exposure to chemical pollutants, such as metals and pesticides, while pregnant (Unfortunately, when I was pregnant with Jocque his father and I were renovating a 100 year old family home. Consequently, I’m sure that is considered a toxic environment. However, at this point in my life, I can’t continue to beat myself up for that occurrence.)

 

 

Reducing the risk of autism: Tips for expectant mothers

 

 

• Take a multivitamin. Taking 400 micrograms of folic acid daily helps prevent birth defects such as spina bifida. It’s not clear whether this will also help reduce risk of autism, but taking the vitamins can’t hurt.

• Ask about SSRIs. Women who are taking an SSRI (or who develop depression during pregnancy) should talk with a clinician about all the risks and benefits of these drugs. Untreated depression in a mother can also affect her child’s well-being later on, so this is not a simple decision to make. (I’ve always taken a NATURAL approach to my depression. Again, I don’t take medication.)

• Practice prenatal care. Eating nutritious food, trying to avoid infections, and seeing a clinician for regular check-ups can increase the chances of giving birth to a healthy child.

 

Source: Harvard Health Publications

 

You don’t have to wait for a diagnosis to start helping your child

 

 

The attachment bond is the unique relationship between your baby and yourself as his or her primary caretaker. This instinctual bonding relationship draws the two of you together insuring that the needs of your helpless and vulnerable infant will be met. The attachment bond, is a key factor in your infant’s social, emotional, intellectual and physical development.

 

 

Incidentally, research has also shown that the genetic changes that contribute to autism don’t have to be inherited — they may also arise spontaneously.

 

 

Some other factors are as follows:

 

 

Pesticides
Exposure to pesticides has also been linked to autism. Some studies have found that pesticides may interfere with genes involved in the central nervous system. Scientists think that chemicals in pesticides may adversely affect those who are genetically predisposed to autism, leading them to develop the full-blown disorder, according to research.

 

 

Pharmaceuticals
Babies that have been exposed to certain pharmaceuticals in the womb, including valproic acid and thalidomide, have been found to have a higher risk of autism. Valproic acid is a medication prescribed for seizures, mood disorders and bipolar disorder, according to the NIH. Again, I have never taken such medication.

 

 

Thalidomide is a drug that was first used in the 1950s to treat morning sickness, anxiety and insomnia. The drug was withdrawn from the market after it was linked with birth defects, but is currently prescribed for a severe skin disorder and as a treatment for cancer. ( I didn’t have morning sickness with my first or second child. However, I had morning sickness very bad with my third child. I lost 20 pounds from not being able to hold down any food. I took a natural remedy known as SYMPHORICARPUS. It comes in a spray form by Liddell Laboratories, called Msi. It’s a homeopathic oral spray. I also had a water-birth with her. Therefore, I avoided any medical induced births with my third. The first two children were induced, with the encouragement of the doctor.)

 

 

 

Which leads me to the following section of this post:

 

Birth Injury Causing Autism (medical malpractice)

 

 

The mis-information about the “safety” of induced labor. One has to factor in the drugs used in this process, such as Cervidil and pitocin. Jocque was an induced labor birth, that went very bad. I had a 42 hour labor with him. He was born at UCLA medical center. The entire experience was a domino effect. Jocque was induced early. And, had the doctor been on time for the birth, I do not believe I would have been encouraged into the possibilities of a c-section. Incidentally, Jocque’s father and I refused a c-section. Why, well because I wanted a vaginal birth. Nevertheless, through the process, Jocque became breech and the cord was wrapped tightly around his neck within the womb; thereby reducing his oxygen. During his birth, even though I was exhausted and full of medication that the hospital staff had given me, I was told, aloud, either forceps or vacuum were used. Though looking through his birth records, I see that occurrence isn’t listed. My son was blue and had to be put on oxygen for a short time. He also was jaundice. I was also given papers to sign that would prevent any further medical malpractice.)

 

 

Unfortunatly, There is no scientific evidence supporting a theory of birth injuries as a cause of autism or autism spectrum disorders. While autism may be caused by a variety of factors, including genetic complications or exposure to toxins, in some cases, this neurodevelopmental disorder may result from injuries an infant sustains during the labor and/or delivery process.

 

 

Types of Birth Injuries Related to Autism

 

 

The brain damage associated with autism birth injury can occur as a result of:

 

 

• delayed C-sections when labor complications arise

• excessive pressure on an infant’s head during delivery (which can be caused by the mother’s pubic bone)

• excessive use of vacuum extraction

• improper use of forceps

• lack of oxygen for the infant (which can result from prolapsed cord, a condition in which the umbilical cord wraps around a baby’s neck and cuts off his circulation)

 

Any such strain on the infant during labor and delivery can cause a change in the way blood flows to, through and out of the brain. It’s these altered blood flows that are associated with birth injury trauma, such as autism and cerebral palsy.

 

 

 

 

When Birth Injuries and Autism Are Most Likely to Occur

 

 

Medical mistakes resulting in birth injury and autism are most likely to occur when other labor and delivery complications arise. These can include:

 

• breech birth (babies are delivered feet first, rather than head first)

• low birth weight (less than 3.3 pounds)

• multiple births

• premature birth (birth before 32 weeks of pregnancy)

 

In addition to these unforeseen complications, poorly trained healthcare staff or an inadequate number of staff may also play a role in birth injury and autism.

 

 

Autism is a condition surrounded by myth and generalizations about people with autism that are rarely appropriate. The common beliefs that people with autism never express emotion, never smile or laugh, never make eye contact, never talk, and never display affection are simply that – myths. Just as every person is unique, with his or her own personality and characteristics, every person with autism manifests the disorder in his or her unique way.

 

 

 

Consequently, a recent study published in the Journal Pediatrics found that oxygen deprivation during pregnancy, during labor or during birth could be a potential cause of Autism. The study which examined 40 previous studies found that a birth injury alone could increase the risk of Autism fivefold! The study also found that neonatal anemia, meconium aspiration, umbilical cord complications and other issues which may sometimes be identified and treated with proper medical care may significantly increase a child’s chances of being diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder.

 

 

While researchers believe that oxygen deprivation during or prior to birth may be a potential cause of Autism, they caution parents and caregivers to remember that further research is necessary and this is potentially only one cause of this complex syndrome.

 

 

Research suggest that the autistic child has an average of 67 percent more neurons, a type of brain cell, in a certain region of the brain, the prefrontal cortex, which processes complex behaviors including language, decision-making and social behaviors. Specifically, the autistic children has 1.94 billion neurons in their prefrontal cortex, versus 1.16 billion in a child who is not autistic. The brains of  autistic boys show to have 79 percent more neurons in the dorsolateral prefrontal cortex, which is linked with executive functioning, such as planning and reasoning. They also had 29 percent more neurons in the mesial prefrontal cortex, which is associated with emotions and social behaviors. In other words, the parts of the brain in which the autistic children had a noticeably high number of neurons are associated with areas, such as language and social behaviors, that autistic individuals are challenged in, sometimes severely. Again, as a mother who has been on this journey for 11 years, follow your gut instinct if you feel something is unfolding within your children.

Blessed be…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

About 13.7 billion years ago all matter and dark matter exploded from a point in space. This has expanded to form the observable Universe which is currently 46 billion light years to the edge. String theory is needed to give us more perspective points of creating unified theory of everything. Likewise, the Incas regarded space and time as a single concept, referred to as pacha (Quechua: pacha, Aymara: pacha.) Consequently, in relation to string theory and Jacob’s Ladder which refers to a Biblical incident when Jacob saw the angels ascending and descending between Earth and Heaven. This is a place, the fourth dimension, where Spirit(s) live. Likewise, in science a “Jacob’s Ladder” consists of two probes sticking up into the air from a box with a charge applied to them. An arc forms at the bottom and crawls up the probes to the top where it breaks and begins again at the bottom, like angels ascending to heaven. Thus, the the concept of God is a metaphor for the universe, the structure of space-time is defined by the Tree of Life; Jacob’s Ladder. Hence, this is the Gnosis, the knowledge of ‘God‘; the Hermetic or intellectual approach to G-d.

A Different Kind of String Theory

 

 

Medical Cannabis refers to the use of cannabis as a physician-recommended herbal therapy, most notably as an antiemetic. Consequently, an antiemetic is effective against vomiting, nausea, motion sickness, and the side effects of chemotherapy and cancer.

Cannabis has been used for medicinal purposes for approximately 4,000 years. Writings from ancient India confirm that its psychoactive properties were recognized, and doctors used it for a variety of illnesses and ailments. These included a whole host of gastrointestinal disorders, insomnia, headaches and as a pain reliever frequently used in childbirth. The cannabinoids in marijuana mimic the healing effects of a naturally occurring chemical in the brain called Anandimide; “also known as N-arachidonoylethanolamine or AEA,  an endogenous cannabinoid neurotransmitter. The name is taken from the Sanskrit word ananda, which means “bliss, delight”, and amide. It is synthesized from N-arachidonoyl phosphatidylethanolamine by multiple pathways. It is degraded primarily by the fatty acid amide hydrolase (FAAH) enzyme, which converts anandamide into ethanolamine and arachidonic acid. As such, inhibitors of FAAH lead to elevated anandamide levels and are being pursued for therapeutic use.

Cannabis also acts as an antispasmodic and anticonvulsant and is indicated for neurological conditions.

In the 1970s, a synthetic version of THC, the primary active ingredient in cannabis, was synthesized to make the drug Marinol. Incidentally, this drug treats or prevents nausea and vomiting caused by cancer medicines, when other medicines do not work. It is also used to increase the appetite of people with acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS). Medical Cannabis also aids in the following:

 

• Relief of muscle spasms (which I have)
• Relief of chronic pain (which I have due to a herniated disc. Consequently, I had to learn how to walk again after having this disc rupture.)

• Reduction in interlobular pressure inside the eye

• As a bronchodilator it is beneficial for asthma.

 

Glaucoma – Marijuana relieves the internal eye pressure of glaucoma, and therefore relieving the pain and slowing or even stopping the condition.

 

Cancer- Many side effects of the medication to stop cancer can be relieve with Marijuana, some studies suggest that Marijuana tends to slow down the progress of some types of cancer.

 

Multiple Sclerosis – Muscle pain, spasticity, tremors and unsteadiness are some of the effects caused by the disease that can be relieved by Marijuana.

 

Epilepsy – in some patients, epileptic seizures can be prevented with Marijuana use.

 

Chronic pain – Marijuana helps to alleviate the pain caused from many types of injuries and disorders.

 

Anxiety and Depression - Even though mild anxiety is a common side effect in some users, cannabis can elevate your mood and expand the mind

 

 

Serotonin is one of many neurotransmitters found in the brain. It is also found in the blood, mucous membranes which line the digestive tract, and stomach. Serotonin is a chemical neurotransmitter made from tryptophan, an amino acid found in food. Certain imbalances in the brain’s neurotransmitters are correlated to depression. Having higher levels of serotonin is shown to counter some depressive symptoms.

 

Marijuana doesn’t directly produce serotonin, but it may help to reduce depression for some people. One chemical in marijuana, THC (tetrahydrocannabinol) does affect a substance in the brain called anandamide. It causes a soothing sensation in the body when it reacts with THC.  Some of the ways that marijuana can affect people in low to medium doses are by:

 

• reducing blood pressure,

• increasing relaxation

 Additionally, marijuana has been found to stimulate neurogensis in the hippocampus — another characteristic that may help counter depression over time. Though it is not fully understood how serotonin, depression, and neurogenesis are related, the production of new neurons in the hippocampus has been associated with relief of depression symptoms for many people. Similarly, a reduction in hippocampal volume is often found in patients with major depression. Many factors contribute the production and destruction of cells in the hippocampus and other regions of the brain, including sleep, stress, anti-depressants, and exercise. As you might guess, getting insufficient sleep and experiencing major life stressors can reduce hippocampal volume, while exercise can stimulate the growth of new cells in the brain. Another chemical in marijuana, cannabidiol, is likely responsible for the anti-depressive effects that stem from neurogenesis. This chemical does not produce the psychoactive effects of marijuana, but is likely responsible for the medicinal benefits of marijuana, in addition to the neurogenesis, including relief of nausea, anxiety, and inflammation. Marijuana can be used to enhance personal spirituality through different types of  meditation. The herb tends to reveal your true self. As opposed to tranquillizers and depressants that relax the body and release tension, but the state of mind associated with these drugs is “unconsciousness” whereby we escape rather than resolve our dilemmas. Alcoholism is an extreme need of both the body and personality sometimes to release the nervousness that has accumulated and continues to build up to an unbearable degree.

 

The point being, medical marijuana is a safe and effective herb when used responsibly.  And, I would advise one use a Vaporizer. The reason being, it is better for your body and it prevents any odor from accumulating within the air.

Blessed be…

 

 

 

Recently the pursuit of my being a good mother has been called into question by certain members that I have associated myself with in the past. Let me start off by saying that I am a Damn good mother, unlike previous examples of parenting I’ve had. I have made a FOCUS of cultivating myself into an example for my children. The fact that I have dedicated myself to their well-being for the past 11 years through much devotion and sacrifice lets the record reflect as such. Though their father is in education, I HOME-SCHOOLED them. And, though their grandfather is a psychiatrist, he Refuses to call my son by his given name and has created a power-struggle within my family. The children are very hurt to realize that they have been shunned due to his ignorance…and others that support his views.  In fact,  I SOUGHT out the needed therapy for my son that was in regard to his autism. Why, well because no courtesy was extended otherwise. Now, in reference to my son’s autism;when the time came for such a diagnosis he was so high-functioning from home-therapy that the “label” was denied him for school records, in kindergarten. Mind you he needed services such as speech therapy and I was told after certain test were conducted he was to be deemed with the label of retardation or ADHD…because it would be good for him in the long run??? I refused such gestures and went about taking him,  paying out of pocket, to neurologist, speech therapist, psychological evaluations…and yadda ya. Can you imagine how stressful that is on a mother, especially without any emotional or financial support? I’ve sold most of my materials to support myself and children. I was even threatened by the school that social services would be called on me because I was taking him in for too many evaluations. And, I was even denied access to the campus because I wanted to pop in and check on him while at school. They said I was too involved. Personally, I was just trying to keep up with his potential of what I was home-schooling him with, the work just never seemed challenging enough that the school gave him.  In fact, the pre-K  he went to  gave him the label of “retardation” or something of the sort. Why did this label surprise me so much? Well, because again, as his mother, I knew his potential. For example, I took him into an audiologist, because he suffers from an auditory processing disorder APD-developmental dysphasia (that I had to inform the neurologist and audiologist about because I personally have a word-recall on verbal demand issue. Therefore, I knew the signs!!!-) for a certain test and they refused him services because he had to be 6 years old to match the research! A lot has occurred. And, now that I’ve put the children into school they bring home behavior that I don’t approve of or conduct in myself. It’s very aggressive. In fact, I have a middle child that now actually hits my 3-year-old and tells her to get away. I know she loves her and doesn’t mean it. However, these are some of the challenges of not home-schooling them anymore, along with their diet. Her attitude has changed so much. It’s not modeled after me!

When I discipline I try to be respectful and firm. I am not their “friend” per se…I am their mother, here to guide them. Listen, I use to do it all! Now, it’s time to let their father take over some of the work. And, for the past 2 years he has pitched in as such. You just get to watch now. Thus, there is no need to get over myself because I am a damn good mother, tired, but…what good mother isn’t! And, I’ve been on STRIKE! I refuse to be over-worked and disrespected anymore! Now, in regard to what I have been doing for Creolemagik while homeschooling the past years. Well, I’ve given tons of advise. I mean I read tarot for goodness sake. And, please note yoga is more than a physical act…as such is TANTRA. I mean there is really a warped view of what tantra really is! I don’t dish out sex! nor shall I ever. I have a clean bill of health! Actually, I’m into SPIRITUAL love and or sex…that’s the tantra I speak of. As the statement reads by Osho ” TANTRA IS THE SCIENCE THAT TEACHES ONE EXPRESSION OF SEX-NOT AS INDULGENCE, BUT, AS A SPIRITUAL DISCIPLINE. THIS IS A TRANSFORMATION OF A BIOLOGICAL PHENOMENON INTO SPIRITUALITY. Previously, I have made money off of my art, writing and I usually give health advise for FREE! And, now well it’s time to bring all of this into a form of a making a living with my art, writing and advise. I’ve conducted a lot of research to feel sufficient in knowing what I am talking about. I’ve been training my mind to FOcus since childhood. And, though I was raped as a child,by fellow “church” members, I am a healthy person-emotionally, spiritually, physically or otherwise. I do not have to prove myself to anyone. I’ve had psychotherapy. That is nothing to be ashamed of, nor is depression/posttraumatic stress. Also,  I was not sold into being a sex-slave. And, I have never engaged in free sex or cheated in any of my relationships. Growing up both my parents had their own issues. Furthermore,in my parenting I strive to be otherwise. Please note, they have never sexually abused me.  It’s always been a distant relationship between them, their families, and I.  And, what Gemini doesn’t have a vivid personality…I mean come on…it’s all in fun! We all have ego. And, I am not in denial about my age or education. I am tired of not being appreciated and respected! I am a good mother and person, not a “gold-digger”. I’ve made my own money in the past. I’ve also taken care of myself since grade school. Incidentally, when I marred my children’s father and had my first child-my son became ill. He had a lot of trauma with his medical birth, just to name a few issues.  That very fact changes everything for a woman and or person. People really shouldn’t psychoanalyze so much or prejudge others in their struggles. Everyone wants to be the judge…

Have a good day.

ps…did I mention both my children have been HONOR  students.

Without mindfulness in our daily lives, we feed our anger and despair by looking at or listening to things around us that are highly toxic. But, if we breathe in and out mindfully and realize that these are not the kinds of things we want to consume, then we will stop accepting them. Thus, to live mindfully means to stop ingesting these kinds of poisons. Instead, choose to be in touch with what is wonderful, refreshing, and healing within oneself and around you-Thich Nhat Hanh. Most importantly, Do not pursue the past, Do not lose yourself in the future. The past no longer is. The future has not yet come. Look deeply at life as it is In the very here and now, dwell In stability and freedom-The Buddha.

Have a good day…

This is Soleil at a ‘MULTI-ethnic play-group, since it’s such an issue for certain people. And,  I am a “Feminist” that speaks for all shades of women and children, I am every Woman.

A book that I have found very helpful while on my journey with motherhood is entitled Buddhism for Mothers by Sarah Napthali. I’ve read it over several times and always find something helpful in regard to caring for myself as an Esoteric Buddhist; while I continue to live some of the chaos involved with being a mother of three.

An excerpt on the back reads as follows: Buddhism for Mothers explores the potential to be with your children in the all-important present moment; to gain the most joy out of being with them. How can this be done calmly and with a minimum of anger, worry, and negative thinking? How can mothers negotiate the changed conditions of their relationships with partners, family, and even with friends?”

This book applies to my life once again as I realize that I no longer have the same interest with those I have considered “friends” for years. Or better yet, their ill behaviour(s) are no longer acceptable or hold value in my life. I’ve grown into another direction and should not continue to feel guilty for doing so. For the past 10 years, I have been in a very transitional stage in my life that has involved a lot of solitude and exploring. Consequently, I am also left with the impression that it’s okay to want, acquire, and desire “things” in life that help me feel good as a woman, and not just for my children. This is a good thing as I continue to seek refuge inside of myself instead of seeking it in others.

Have a good day,

Z

 

 

In Tibet it is essential that the ‘Yogini’s’ authority be authenticated in two traditions simultaneously. Consequently,I received my Holy Communion, Ilekes and Warriors in 1976 when I was initiated into La Regla Lucumi (Santeria). Thereafter, I received Ikofá and made Kariocha in 1979 via my Godfather’s Ilé, I am a crowned daughter of Yemanja through “The Lady of Seven Stars Temple” (Shango Baptist). I have been a devotee of Esoteric Buddhism, Zen, and Shamanic Vajrayana  for over 30 years.

 

BB,

Z

Click on the links to see and hear about two in particular that spark my interest; Why Feminism is Frightening and Embracing Motherhood & Feminism. After 10 years of Homeschooling my children and 12 years of  a marriage, I realize that I’ve got a lot of catching up to do for myself, in regard to shifting the FOCUS on me and my passions. The choice to leave my education and the workforce 12 years ago was not an easy one. However, I’ve learned a lot about myself via motherhood and I love my children. Nevertheless, the fact remains that, as a Woman, I am still apart of a bigger cause for equality, freedom, and respect… It’s not been an easy fight. I feel that “Third Wave Feminism” is a voice for me and I am interested in doing further work with the Third Wave Foundation.

 

Z